My first cousin and I have been in love with each other for more than a year, and we're still in love with each other. I'm actually studying and majoring psychology and thinking of going into pre-med. It should be an interesting and knowledgalbe (if that's a word) time for me to actually learn the different ways of life and studying human behaviors....but back to the subject.
Our family is totally against the cousin relationship deal, and lately, things haven't been going so well for the both of us. I live at home with my sister while my dad is away on a business trip while I stay home and actually face the full responsibilities of taking care of myself and my sister. It's really been a great experience for me, since I'm thinking of moving out the end of this year. First year of college, full-time student, lots of studying, working as well...but otherwise, everything's actually worth it since every step I take, is another step to learning more. But my cousin...she lives with her family as well as 2 or 3 other families that live there as well. It didn't take them long to realize that something was "up" with my cousin and I. We've actually went through very very tough times together and managed to follow our dreams and goals. Now...with all the nagging and persuasion from her family, as well as the financial and social problems amongst her family, she seems more repressive of her emotions and lately when I talked to her, she doesn't want to provoke our relationship further, fear of losing her family and the stress she will face. I can tell she is sad, and I have noticed change in the way we talk (mostly chatting online since we don't want our families to know). I remember how we use to go online and be so happy that we were able to talk with each other and share what we did during the day and the problems we're dealing with. Mostly ups' and downs, but we've made it through together.
I'm actually reading some books now, some on gambling addiction since her dad has a gambling problem, others on building a stronger relationship, which I am also trying to pursue. I don't believe it is impossible for us to be together, but to her...it does. she wants to be with both, her family and me. I think we can make it through together, but right now, I'm mostly worried about her repressive state. I guess all I really need now is some support..and possibly some advice. Am I doing the right thing? I have researched alot on anything I can get my hands on, and what's on my mind, from the possiblity of being together to trying to persuade others that we want to be together, but also, we want the familys' support..... if all these made any sense, a reply would be nice. Also, an advice for me to show her how much I really love her, that I don't believe it is impossible for us to be together, would be great.
I love her with all my heart, through lifes sufferings and all the barriers that try to stop me. I could try to stand up agaisnt all those who oppose me, alone, if that's what it takes for us to be together.